You are more than just a mom. Why is that so hard to remember lately?
It’s hard to remember you’re more than a mom while living through a pandemic. It’s hard to remember when the baby wakes you up for the fifth time in four hours and all you want is a little sleep. It’s hard to remember when you feel like a vital source of food instead of a human. It’s hard to remember when you sit in a closet at work to pump and get scared that someone might walk in. It’s hard to remember when someone points out you have spit up in your hair. It’s hard to remember when you hear, “Mom, mom, mom, mom, mom” thousands of times before 8 am. It’s hard to remember when you’re attempting to teach them third grade math and they won’t sit still and when did elementary school get so hard?
It’s hard to remember that we are more than just the mothers and caretakers of tiny dependent humans. We are women. We are lovers and fighters and friends and wives and daughters and free people that can make independent decisions and be total bad asses.
I found myself hiding behind motherhood. For a long time. When I started this blog, actually. Hence the name Hashtag MomFail. Then people started reading my blog. They thanked me for putting my truth out there. They asked me questions and I answered them. They messaged me and I began to realize people were listening. And it lit something up inside me that I hadn’t felt in a really long time.
If you feel lost in motherhood right now, I FEEL YOU! I was you and I am still you. I have a three and six year-old and sometimes all I can think about is how I want to scream and run away. And you know what, sometimes I run away. And I come back a better person, woman, mom, wife and daughter.
So I’m telling you it’s okay to run away. Escape it all. Relax. Take a breather. Taking a break doesn’t make you weak, it makes you a better person.
You do you, girl. You’ve got this.